
So sorry to put my 'followers' (and I say that loosely) into some serious mood lighting but I'm finding it hard to blog about topics that don't effectively squeeze out the leftover juice from my mind grapes. Usually 'Cure My Obscurity' is the place to find blogs on all things un-blog-worthy, yet today there is way too much going on to stick to my standard template.
It's your classic case of life problems as a whole. I wouldn't use 'problem' to the strictest sense of the word though because actually there is no problem, just lots of confusion. I just got to thinking about paths and futures. It is the third time in one year that my working holiday in Canada is 'coming to an end' in a few months and already I'm trying to find ways to avoid this abrupt conclusion. So many things that can hinder future Jesse's functionality in the modern day yuppie society. I don't know what it is but I feel much more comfortable having $30 in my account and having no food in the fridge after a day of free snowboarding than having $10,000, sitting at home all day blogging (no offense).
University, jobs, girls, money and last but certainly not least, popularity. I mean, I'm going to have to go home eventually, and I'm wondering how many friendships I may have squandered by being over here and not keeping sufficiently in touch with people. Money isn't an issue because I love being poor and am thinking of using this lack of funds as the basis of my 'decision' to stay (not affording a ticket home). University is the biggest one. I don't know if I can start again, I'm not getting old, but getting older. Public Relations is a young persons game, all sorts of new 18 year old girls scabbing up jobs in the industry at the bat of an eyelid. Girls; maybe. You can't really maintain relationships over here and going home to meet someone definately should be an issue. But it's one I am not too concerned with. Plus, I'm starting to hate the idea of dating a girl that has an Australian accent. But as hard as it is to maintain a relationship here, I've never been one to give up without trying; nothing specific, just if the chance were to arise it would be another good excuse to fuck up real life.
Although these issues seem pretty personal or whatever, it is something that many travellers (and some non-travellers) ask themselves. When (if ever) is it alright to fuck up your future? Most the people I know that have stayed overseas after a years leave of absence find themselves in the same pickle. It's where a working holiday becomes a real life. Yeah, I work at a ski resort in Canada; but I've been here a year now. I have a real house, a real car, real friends which I regard as close as family, a solid job, hobbies and an intensely fun lifestyle (snowboarding by day, maggot by night). I don't own an I-Phone or an Apple Mac, but I treasure the idea that I have no use for them.
Could this be a real life?

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